Timing is very important when you want to compete at the very top level of a sport. You have to take into account your fitness, your age, the amount of time you spent training and all.

Heres the scenario.

AMBITION
If you have an ambition, you chase it right? You sacrifice things in life to pursue what you want. And thats what I want to do. I'll post it here, my ambition is to fight at the top level one day. Competitive taekwondo, or Muay thai.

TIMING
Most competitive fighters today have been training in a sport since young, as early as 7 years old, and age between 20 - 30 years old when finally fighting competitively in their prime. Thats sums up to around 13 or 14 years of training experience in a sport, before going competitive.

BEHIND TIME
I only started Taekwondo and Muay thai at 17 years old, and currently, i train only once a week in taekwondo. I'm clearly behind time if I want to fight competitively in future. When I'm not in training, i work on my physical conditioning, and when I'm in training, i give my 150% to make sure I'm constantly improving, hoping that in the near future, I'll make it at the competitive level in the sport. But the reality of the matter is, all the effort I put in to make myself technically sharper, and physically stronger, its not enough. Because, 1 training session of 3-4 hours a week is nothing compared to those who have started building foundations as early as 7 or 8 years old.

SUPPORT
I dont train everyday. I dont have a sandbag to practice on at home, and I dont have people who share a similar interest / ambition around me. Furthermore, my family members dont even give a shit about taekwondo. Honestly, its a very demoralizing environment, and its very hard for me to improve at a pace i want / need to.

THE RESCUE PLAN
Thats why, during my 5 month holiday before enlisting into NS, I want to invest my time in a Muay Thai training camp for around a week in Thailand (http://www.rawaimuaythai.com). There, I'm entitled to 6 hours of pure Muay Thai training a day, continuously everyday. And when I'm not training, I can practice on the sandbag, or do some physical conditioning at the gym. There, I can get trainers to help me correct my technical mistakes, learn new techniques, and improve my game. There, i can focus everything on a routine of eating - sleeping - training for a week. Basically, its the environment that i want to experience. and its the environment there that I wana pay to go to. Yes, Muay thai is an entirely different martial art from taekwondo. Even though Muay thai training is different, fighting is fighting. Fighting instincts is a universal language, so if i improve my muay thai, i improve my taekwondo.

And as usual, no one around me approves. Instead, of a caring and understanding yes, they tell me loads of shit. They list down a 101 fuckingly absurd reasons why i shouldn't go,

• Dont go to these kind of places in thailand! theres black magic!
• Those thai women are good for nothing
• Im not free to go there w you (yeah right, you just booked a trip to thailand for shopping w ur fucking friend.)
• You can train here in singapore.
• Theres no promotion on flight tickets to go there (not like a normal ticket would kill you, especially when its a budget airlines flight to thailand)

And as you can see, I've clearly illustrated how clearly un-supportive my parent is when I want to pursue my interests. I always try to explain, and they always don't give a shit. Honestly, its not always easy to be motivated, when people around you dont give a shit about you and your interest.

When i train hard and come back tired or injured (from sparring), they don't ask how i got hit, why i got hit, what mistake I made, but they tell me, "you asked for it."

Back to basics :(

I'm definitely not as physically sharp as before. My kicks aren't loaded with as much power as I'd expected them to have, and on top of that, they're alot slower than before. 4 months of endless stationary study - eat - sleep repetitions, and thats the result you get.

My physical condition is probably worst now than ever before. Its back to square one for me. Looks like I'm going to need to build up my conditioning from scratch now, sigh, its really demoralizing you know.

Right! I'm trying to share a value that drives me forward in running and taekwondo. Okay but this paragraph definitely seems out of the ordinary in this post. I've been sitting here thinking of a related introduction for this F***ing paragraph, but i cant. hahah. so here it is.

People should really learn to take things to the next level, always pushing for one extra kick, one extra pull up, one extra km, one extra lap, one extra set in the gym. If its 10 pull ups now, then its at least 11 pull ups the next time, and 12 .. 13 .. so on. Thats how I got to 29 consecutive pull ups, finished 42.195km, and improved my game in taekwondo, all within the training span of one year. (Although i cannot say the same for academics .. LOL ..) Of course all this is easier said than done. But all it takes is an ambition, a target or a goal to accomplish something of the top level, to change your perception of "torture" to a "no - pain - no gain" mentality. And that mentality is really the driving force and motivation that will eventually take it to the next level.

haha, whats wrong w me ?
stop dreaming ..
its not gonna happen

I bought a pair of adidas taekwondo shoes! (strange isnt it, shoes for taekwondo. lol)! its called the Adi Luxe, and it cost me a bomb, dammit lol.

Disclaimer: If you cannot accept people who use vulgarities like drinking water, please dont read the hate paragraph below. Love it or lump it :)

Your a bloody motherfucker. In fact, your whole family lives on a core value of "mother fuckerness", because clearly thats what your parents seem to teach you. You think your the only one in the world that truely matters. You put no consideration for the people around you, because you only care about your fun, your entertainment, your individual well being. Its self-before-others. Your a motherfucking adult now, so start behaving like one. What ever shit "character building" or "leadership" camps your school has put you through so far, they clearly picked the wrong person, because i really wonder what they teach you in those mother fucking camps. Oh wait, i think they teach you how to be a good motherfucker, because your're apparently very good at being one. And because of all the descriptions I've listed here, your a pure motherfucker raised by mother fucking parents. Well, you, and your family.

Please people, if you think your a motherfucker, dont fuck around with other people and start a family and teach ur kids to be motherfuckers. Watching one family of motherfuckers is already painful enough for me. Bye bye.

Bulk of the alvl papers are over now. I'm down to chemistry P1 , and biology P3 on monday, and finally my last Biology P1 on 3rd December, then I'm FREE! if i don't have to repeat 1 more year that is. I haven't done any taekwondo or muay thai for AGES now. I think I'm suffering from some kind of withdrawal symptoms lah -_-. this two things are like a drug to me. cant live without :(

anyway, I'm signing up for the Men's Health Urbanathlon later when my mom gets home.

Date : 31st January 2010
Distance : 12.5km
Fee : $128

This is the 4th race, and by far the most expensive race ( and also the shortest distance ironically !) I'm signing up for this year. Personally, $128 is a big fee for a 12.5km race lol, but the race pack makes up for it i guess.



HAHA, they even put Durex in there.
The event top looks quite cool, and i gotta admit, thats 70% the reason why I'm registering for this race ! To me, the most important part of the race, is finishing it, and THE SHIRT! After all, its cool to have a collection of event tops from every race to remember, remind and motivate us (or me) for what we (or I) do!

I think I'm only going to be working a part time job for December, maybe January if i can find one. The rest of the time from Feb - April, I'm going to be doing a serious training routine to improve my 2.4km timing and pull up count (maybe hit 30 or 35) so that I go in the Naval Diving Unit in peak physical condition :D. Dont wana start lagging behind everyone in BMT right? hahah.

How do I breathe, yeah.
How do I breathe, yeaaaah.
It feels so different being here,
I was so next to being next to you,
Life for me is not the same,
There's no one to turn to.
I don't know why I let it go too far,
Starting over it's so hard.
Seems like everywhere I try to go,
I keep thinking of you.


I just had a wake up call,
Wishing that I never let you fall,
Baby you are not blame at all.
Remember when I pushed you away?
Baby if you knew I cared,
You'd have never went nowhere,
Girl I should've been right there.


How do I breathe,
Without you here by my side?
How will I see,
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go,
When your heart's where I lay my head?
When you're not with me,
How do I breathe?
How do I breathe?


Girl I'm losin' my mind.
Yes I made a mistake.
I thought that you would be mine.
Guess the joke was on me.
I miss you so bad I can't sleep.
I wish I knew where you could be.
Another dude is replacing me,
but this can't be happening.

I cant help thinking about the workout I'm going to obsess myself with after As. AH~

• Cant wait to register for Adidas Sundown 2010.
• And hopefully find someone in NDU to run NorthFace 100km next year too (50km duo)!
• I wana buy a road bike and start biking!
• I wana do a triathlon by 2011!
• I cant wait to go in NDU( Naval Diving Unit)! (seriously, cant wait for the pain and suffering! Sounds retarded? but yeah, w8ever lol.)
  
• I wana go to dive school and swim!
• CANT WAIT TO GO FOR TAEKWONDO
  
• Cant wait to go for taekwondo grading hopefully get black belt ASAP (think long term baby)!
  
• Cant wait to save up and buy my polar FT80 (a watch with heart rate / run speed monitoring capabilities, so i can pace my runs or swim T_T!!!!!!!)

Sounds tiring, SOUNDS GOOD.

By the way, I officially declare K1 are corrupt tournament. Fuck the judges in K1. Okay most of you reading probably don't know what K1 is. K1 is every fighter's dream. Its a tournament for any martial artist, where you can use any martial art style (except that you cant use your elbows if your a Muay Thai fighter). To fight in this tournament is glory.

And Buakaw (my favourite fighter :D) has been dominating the stage since he joined around 4/5 years ago. He was unbeaten and crowned champion in the 70kg division for 2 years, and recently the K1 judges imposed all sorts of dumb rules to disadvantage buakaw and other muay thai fighters. ( No more than 3 knee strikes in a clinch and other dumb stuff ) Probably because hes just too godlike for the rest of the pussy shit fighters in the tournament.


THIS was clearly Buakaw's fight, I don't understand how the judges gave Andy Souwer the victory. Buakaw dominated the clinch (the hugging) and gave souwer some really deep knees, Buakaw clearly won after the full 3 rounds, no need for that fucking dumb extra round, besides buakaw clearly dominated the extra round in the clinch, and dodged most of Souwer's kicks and jabs. Buakaw was ROBBED of his victory.

~Pictures~



yup. thats my work space right there. lecture notes, paper, books and arsenal on the computer :)

and, January


and you can see the white cataract in her eyes (because shes old), yes shes around 90% blind now, so she spends most of her time sleeping and lazing around because its difficult for her to navigate since she keeps bumping onto walls or chairs and tables. :(

oh and that white thing in the background is not my used tissue paper. its tape to make sure her pillow doesnt keep getting pushed out of her bed lol.

and not forgetting, my cat, February