I'm honestly quite demoralized. I've been training like everyone else. Putting up 100% like everyone else. Yet I failed my 4km timed run for the 3rd time in the 3rd week straight. What the fuck will it take for me to pass my timed run?
We're going to do 6km timed runs from next week onwards (no more 4km). And I don't know how the fuck I'm gonna pass that, when I can't even pass my 4km timed run.
Am I just not built for running ? Is it because I don't have the 'running genes' ? I dont know really. But fuck, I ran till i puked at the finish line and i still didn't pass. That's all that matters. I'm doomed for remedial training every saturday. >.<
Mood's been rather down in camp lately. Everyone's on zombie mode and morale's really low, thanks to the people we deem as our "Batch fuckers". The individualists who simply refuse to contribute their help in a tight situation. The people who only think about themselves before even considering the need to help other people. Its a really ugly personality I'm just DISGUSTED by it.
"Ah, I'm tired, so I'm going to rest on my bed, while everyone else does area cleaning for me." "Lets go to the toilet, theres no body there. We don't have to help out if we're in the toilet."
This sorta thing. Get my drift? They think: "ah someone else's gonna do it for me eventually, so i'll just go rest at the corner while everyone does it ^^."
Its fucking ugly and it disgusts me. When are people going to realize that the faster we put aside our individualistic thinking, the better off we'll be? When are they gonna realize that our true strength lies in our numbers, in our ability to cooperate with each other, in our team spirit, in our teamwork, and not as individuals? They just don't see it. They don't see that our class is only as strong as the weakest link. That being an individual gets you no where, no matter how fit you are, how fast you swim, or how far you run, it all counts for nothing.
Apart from the individualists in our class, I sense the team players in our class are losing their morale as well. For just how long more are we gonna clean the toilets and do your shit for you, while you relax in the toilet, or sleep on your bed for an extra 5minutes? Camp is an ugly place. And it ain't gonna get prettier any time soon.
We're going to do 6km timed runs from next week onwards (no more 4km). And I don't know how the fuck I'm gonna pass that, when I can't even pass my 4km timed run.
Am I just not built for running ? Is it because I don't have the 'running genes' ? I dont know really. But fuck, I ran till i puked at the finish line and i still didn't pass. That's all that matters. I'm doomed for remedial training every saturday. >.<
Mood's been rather down in camp lately. Everyone's on zombie mode and morale's really low, thanks to the people we deem as our "Batch fuckers". The individualists who simply refuse to contribute their help in a tight situation. The people who only think about themselves before even considering the need to help other people. Its a really ugly personality I'm just DISGUSTED by it.
"Ah, I'm tired, so I'm going to rest on my bed, while everyone else does area cleaning for me." "Lets go to the toilet, theres no body there. We don't have to help out if we're in the toilet."
This sorta thing. Get my drift? They think: "ah someone else's gonna do it for me eventually, so i'll just go rest at the corner while everyone does it ^^."
Its fucking ugly and it disgusts me. When are people going to realize that the faster we put aside our individualistic thinking, the better off we'll be? When are they gonna realize that our true strength lies in our numbers, in our ability to cooperate with each other, in our team spirit, in our teamwork, and not as individuals? They just don't see it. They don't see that our class is only as strong as the weakest link. That being an individual gets you no where, no matter how fit you are, how fast you swim, or how far you run, it all counts for nothing.
Apart from the individualists in our class, I sense the team players in our class are losing their morale as well. For just how long more are we gonna clean the toilets and do your shit for you, while you relax in the toilet, or sleep on your bed for an extra 5minutes? Camp is an ugly place. And it ain't gonna get prettier any time soon.
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