Ghosts of Rwanda during GP lesson made it's impact on me today, where 800k - 1million people were slaughtered in a time frame of 100 days (10 000 each day). It would take a mixture of insanity and evil to kill innocent people on a daily basis and feeling nothing about it. However, it would be pure evil if you had the capability to save these lives in a week, but chose to do nothing about it, simply because it wasn't in your interest to do so (or rather, national interest)

I'd refer you to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3jNHEOqFIn8 if you don't already know what a genocide is.

Today was a good refresher. I'm abit more focused now (though still worse than before).

I've skipped running for two whole weeks now (I'm trying to rest myself), but instead, its been a nightmare for me. My flexibility is like shit. In fact, its gotten worse, and I cant even do a proper head level kick despite resting for so long now.

I've got

• no appetite
• no optimism
• no enthusiasm
• no concentration
• no focus

and I've been

• Lethargic
  
• Moody
• Down
  
• coughing ( for a week)
• less talkative
• aching
  

Despite cutting off my trainings, I've been feeling so tired after school, that I've fallen asleep by 9pm at least 3 times this week. My meals have been alot more smaller primarily because I don't seem to have an appetite to eat recently, even when I'm hungry, I've got no appetite. The irony is, I'm getting eyebags. (abit).

you're different

Ambitions

Jogged through NTU again under the glory of the hot sun. Horrible. My hunger set in about halfway through the jog, and it hit me that I had not eaten anything for the past 4 hours. It was a torturous run, to be feeling hungry and fatigued and at the same time faced with the notorious uphills under the desert warm sun in NTU.

Anyway, i was going for some solitude, which is not always an all emo-ey virtue these days when it takes time off from books and computers.

Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?

Then this lyrics passed through my earphones and gave me new found inspiration to study.

You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo

Adidas sundown running clinic

I spent my entire afternoon yesterday listening to lectures/talks by doctors and professiors at a running clinic at Changi General Hospital yesterday organized by the Sundown marathon organizers. They covered everything from tapering, to nutrition, shoes, injury management and biology.

I'm honestly worried for myself now. I was enlightened yesterday that i definitely wasnt running enough to survive it all. Alright, its not too late. I've got around 6 - 7 weeks to go. =(

Enough of running. Anyway, homeworks' been a time killer. I've hardly got time for anything else. Yes its probably due to poor time management on my weekdays in the first place, but JEEZ, this sucks.

Bachelor of sports sciences. now thats where i wana go.

taekwondo, and mileage

Mileage - Unknown
Time - Unknown

I ran the depths of Nanyang Technological University this evening. It was a route filled with notorious mountains of ups, and breezy downhills. It was kinda creepy running through NTU. Since i was jogging along the parameter in a nearly opaque sky, the scenery was simply dark jungle for most of the run. It was a good thing to bring along my MP3 for this run, it kept me distracted from the hauntings, and focused on the goal. Gotta say, NTU is one big place. Just running the parameters took me around an hour and a half to complete. Its my first run in a LONG LONG time, since I've been resting my pulled butt from some taekwondo training a few weeks back.

I'm going for a running clinic next weekend at Changi General Hospital (i paid 10 bucks to listen to talks by doctors for an entire afternoon.) I hope it helps. I mean, i don't wana be running 'the wrong way'.

Today's my first grading with SPARRING (green belt and above, yay) and it was ok i guess. We brought an incredible 79 members down for grading today, and it was definitely an incredible display of manpower. Its the first time in a long time since we've (or i've) handled such a big group of people. speaking from statistics, even 79 isnt the full force of JJ taekwondo yet.

Despite the big group of people we sent for grading today, it was a pleasant surprise how everything went smoothly today, cause cockups were begining to become a routine happening for me -_-.

We're the biggest club in the school alright.
i think.