Productivity

I made a pact before a holidays that I'd try my best to make it as productive as I can, and i truely have, as far as my self discipline takes me. Though sometimes i really don't feel like doing work, don't feel like doing anything useful, anything 'academical'. Times like these, i run, swim, gym, sweat, chill, sleep to make my time as productive as I can. At least I'm improving myself one way or another, if it isn't in my academics, then let it be my physical condition =).

Everyday, i think about my alvls, my future, my job, my life. And everyday, every hour, every minute, every second I launch into the past, the pressure mounts on my shoulders. It feels like I've mounted on the weight of the rest of my life, on my shoulders, and sometimes its really tough to stand strong and push ahead. Its make or break.

I've had so many things this holiday, from important things, to emotional happenings and feats of personal achievements. From my first 42.195km, to handling over my taekwondo leadership, Michael Jackson's death and academics. Its been a productive month for me. But as much as I've tried thus far to prepare myself for the academic Everest ahead of me, it still depresses me when i think about how much more work lies ahead of me, how much more I've got to learn, and digest, and absorb, and apply. I'm not even halfway through my revision people.

Its good to be a good player
But its also important to be a good man first
- Jose Mourinho

Just what's this notion of mine
Is it genuine ?
'Cause sometimes it plays tricks on my mind

ACADEMICS

I took the chance to go swimming this morning. And i even had a good lunch, before i realised that today's Friday. Dratz, all along i thought that today was thursday.

So I'm left with 2 days before my June holidays end. It feels like I've revised so much work. I've covered so many topics. From maths, to chemistry, to biology, it feels like I've raised my understanding, and standard of these topics to a whole new level. Ironically, it also feels depressing, because I've got so many more topics to cover. I've done alot, but the thing is, there's alot MORE to do. I've never done so many topics on one single time frame, and yet still feel like the marathon is just beginning. I'm paying the price for my lack of consistent mugging for last year i guess. But hey, its not too late to start.

I've come to know of people(s) in better colleges mugging till 3am without fail everyday. And the sad reality is, in this field of academics I'm competing in, these are the monsters I'm up against. Its either them, or me. this just strengthens my resolve to do well. i hope it lasts.

Now, back to reality. Common tests start next week, and my unrealistic target is 70 points. Well, dream big or don't dream at all people, hahah. I've been doing so much content work this holidays, and I haven't practiced doing questions (apart from maths). Because of this, I know I may not do very well for this series of tests, but hey mans and womans, the strategy is long term. I'll have all the time in the world to practice different questions when school reopens. How am i supposed to practice doing different questions properly if i dont have my fundamentals set straight? If i do question practices now, then where am i gona find the time to cover my content when school reopens?
The strategy is long term, the target is alvls, the goal is A.

I watched transformers today. 10/10, go watch it bitches, its a nice show.

-spoilers-

• Its such a shame Optimus Prime had to die at the start, and only get revived at the end.
• Its funny how the little decepticon robot was all over Meagan Fox's leg, 'humping' her leg. Considering her astronomical scale of hotness, i actually find what he did, justifiable. BWAHAHAH

I watched "COMING SOON" at Isa's house today. Go watch it too bitches, scares the shit out of your rectum.

Today was a fun day, and i didn't study anything at all. But hey, don't blame me, its my holiday period alright? If I'm gonna mug everyday of the holidays, what the fuck is the holiday for huh? And besides, people with no life (i wont name your fucking ugly name(s) here), don't have a right to even exist. Earth's resources are limited, and people are starving elsewhere. Why do u deserve to be fed? Lifeless freak shows. Okay enough intense stuff !! I'll study tomorrow, i swear.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

friends

Just some funny random crap.

its about 1 month since my 42km, and the stats are still coming fresh from the sundown website. its cool how they can provide you with information. According to the stats, i finished in 91st place in my category (male 42km,under 20 years old), finishing at the 24th percentile. That's top 25 percent baby! yayness.

Alright, now gotta focus on that SAFRA 21km half marathon in August. Mentally as much as anything, I'm not as worried for this, cause i know I've ran double the distance before. haha, but thats no excuse for complacency, its time to get running.

Anyway, I've been doing some revision work lately, and I've been doing it at a REAL comfortable pace (which means its slow as hell :x). Lets see, I've covered at least half of the topics for the upcoming bio common test, I've got 1 more week to just pia my chemistry for common tests, and maths, I'm only left with revision for complex no.s and vectors!

So for my next 1 week, i've got

Maths
- Complex Numbers
- Vectors (which i'll probably skip)

Biology
- Cell replication
- Bio diversity / evolution

Chemistry
- Chemistry Equlibrium
- Alcohols
- Carboxylic acids
- Halogens

Oh, and geography <-- FUCK THIS! =D

We're worlds apart
you're up there
I'm down here
sigh

hello singaporeans. when i save enough, I'm going to Poland / New Zealand / Alaska . its way too warm here. stay here and bake if you wish.

=)

I so badly want to run , but I've got a fever.
I so badly want to swim, but I've got a fever.
I so badly want to gym, but I've got a fever.
I so badly want to eat KFC, but I've got a fever.
I so badly want to tkd, but I've got a fever.
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.
.
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Sigh

I'm burning with a 38.6 degree fever, and i feel like shit now.

Its ironic that i keep falling sick. In fact, i fall sick probably more times a year than my entire family does all together, even though i work out the most. Genetics is a bitch.

Endings.

I had so many things i wanted to say here, but sitting here now infront of my computer, I simply cant remember what i wanted to say.

My mind's in a blank. I'm lost for words. From cock ups to cock and bull stories to talking cock, its been a tough year for me as the president of JJC's taekwondo club. I've definitely had a fair share of hell lows and sky highs. When i reflect on the past, theres just so many things i wish i could change, so many things i wish i could have done better. But now, it feels like such a waste. Its such a shame that my time in JJ would only last 2 years (hopefully). It feels like the world's been lifted of my shoulders, now i can finally lock my mind into my alevels.

I cant help but feel optimistic about the club's future. I sense a wave of change coming. If we keep at it, we'll definitely get stronger as time passes. Afterall, we're fighters. Theres so many more things in my head i wish i could express here, but some things cant be expressed in words.

Good day!

What puzzles me, is how a foot deep puddle of water can exist, on a dead hot day such as today.

I sunk one foot, ankle length, into a puddle of water when i tried to cut the pavement through some bushes, and that pissed me off. How the fuck can a puddle of water exist on a day which has made my home into a furnace? Thanks to that, i lost my pacing halfway (3km?) of a 8km run i was doing today, and i walked the entire distance home, with one shoe filled with water like a sponge. was lucky not to get blisters. -_-.

I've been struggling to stay focused recently, and i cant stress the importance of this holiday as a closed door mugging period for me. Apparently, my conscious doesn't feel that way. I'm addicted to FIFA 09 (shit.) and i've gotta BREAK LOSE! argh !3@!$#@

innocence

I'm living out the lows of life. Why do i even bother sometimes?