theres some weird problem with blogger. so i'll just post it here.


This is where it all begins,
So tell me it'll never end.
I can't fool myself,
It's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
If anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.

Show me that good things come to those who wait

That day, you took a huge part of me away

Its 9.06pm, and i just got home from my selection round for the Naval Diving Unit. They make you do all sorts of weird rocket science stuff, from sitting in pressure chambers, to blowing into some weird tube, oh, and not forgetting the 185 question long questionnaire to fill up. And the whole thing took me a whole bloody day to do (7.30am to 7.30pm seriously). Anyway, ironically after today, I've come to realize that I seriously want to be a part of this unit, lol.

I'm so fed up because I lost my ****ing wallet. My IC, POSB card, EZ-link card, all gone. I hope whichever shitbag that finds my wallet would be gracious enough to mail my IC back to me.

Anyway, i get to skip school on Monday, because I've got my .. VOCATIONAL ASSESMENT (selection) for the diving unit! I do hope i don't fuck it up. If I pass this, I'm getting a personal swimming instructor to teach me fucking swimming after my alvls (cus i totally don't know how to swim :D), wish me luck :D

Ever had one of those days, where you know you need to be studying, but your hand just wont pick the pen up, and your butt just wont sit at your chair? Well, today's one of those days. If i keep launching into the future with days like today .. GG ALVLS :)

OKAY, CHANGE STARTS TOMORROW. BREAKFAST > MORNING RUN > STUDY > LUNCH > STUDY > DINNER > SLEEP. All set and ready to go.

Do me a favour and go fuck someone else's life.

you make me feel like shit when its not even my fault
And you probably don't even know that because you're so blinded by fuck knows what.

I've recovered from my shock from yesterday's letter, and its all so laughable. NDU may be a good thing afterall. Anyway, its not in my nature to pussy out on a good challenge (i think), I'll just treat this one like another challenge, like my 42km sundown.

tough training
is good training

Deep water shit

Lime introduce you to the Naval Diving Unit (NDU), which is probably the toughest unit in NS. In fact, their training standards match, if not exceeds, that of the Commandos. Being in NCC has taught me that, NDU is crazy (seriously) and I've heard so many nasty badass rumours about their crazy trainings. I probably fucked up my NS life even before enlisting, because of a suspicious letter that looks like this:

FURTHER REPORTING ORDER
1) You are hereby required under the Enlistment Act (Chapter 93) to report for a Vocational Assessment on - xxx date - to SEMBAWANG NAVAL BASE
.
.
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Bring along your swimming trunks / googles / dark towel

This is the kind of letter people get for a mono-intake enlistment (for those commandos & NDU), and shit, I probably got in NDU, though I still keep my fingers crossed :(.
Besides theres still the interview, which i could potentially fail :D, because .. I DONT FUCKING KNOW HOW TO SWIM =D

WARNING, NOT FOR THE FAINT HEARTED

I've got so many things in my mind that I wanna let out

Insomnia

Yesss, common tests are over. And the outlook? Gloomy. I'll probably fail chemistry badly and that's for sure. Furthermore, I'm having doubts and insecurities with the rest of my subject. THAT GP PAPER last month was probably the hardest I've taken in my life, and the maths and biology just seem to hang in the balance of a pass. The hall was like a massive freezer today. Good day to be dressed in owens and PE shorts, sitting just underneath the stupid air conditioner for 3 hours straight. I probably shivered more counts than alphabets in my biology essay question just now.

I think I'm suffering from insomnia. I've been finding it so hard to fall asleep these few days. I could twist around on my bed from midnight, and then check the time the next moment, its 1.30am and i still haven't fallen asleep. Whats worse, i actually really feel sleepy. And it happened for the second day straight now. As I'm typing this post now, my eyes feel like a soaked tea bag hanging from my eye sockets. My eyelids probably weigh 1kg each, and i feel lethargic. Strange as it may sound, i cant still sleep.

Maybe something's bothering me, something deep down inside of me, I dont know really.

Maybe i dont know what i really want.