Tuesday, March 16, 2010

The Run Therapy

I can't seem to understand why people enjoy running in groups.

I find most satisfaction in running alone. Running alone gives me a break from the hustle of everyday life. When running alone, its just you and your soul, running at your own pace (if you feel tired, you could just stop without worrying about slowing your partner down, or vice versa). You feel fresh air in your lungs, sweat dripping down your chin, and best of all, you feel your heart beating against your ribcage like a sledgehammer, reminding you that you're alive and kicking, that there's more to life than just facebook.

I mean, at home or in schools or when going out, there's just so much information to process, so much things to do, so many things to think about. And finally when you take the time out to run alone, you don't need to think about anything else other than placing one foot infront of the other for as long as you can. It is in this solitude that I find clarity in my thoughts (; To think about issues one at a time), which has been my best therapy when in uncertain and tough times.


And over time when you do it long enough, your stamina improves, you run faster, you run for longer durations, longer distances. That's when the run-therapy becomes addictive, and what originally started as a form of therapy for your soul, becomes something on an entirely different level :

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You start to feel as though you could go on forever without taking a break or a drink, the feeling is great. And whenever you run, you hear the rhythm of your own breathing taking control. You feel in control of your body, your feet takes you where you want to go, your body doesn't rest until you allow it to, your mind just won't give up. And then there's the lungs. Your lungs feel like they've been implanted from an elephant, no matter how long or how far you run, your lungs still feel great. Your breathing still feels good, you start to feel confident about your fitness. Then you feel more adventurous, you wanna try conquering something new. It gives you the foundations, physically and mentally to start a new sport like cycling, or swimming.

And when you don't run, you start to feel fat, unhealthy, sick, unhappy, its your body demanding you give it what it wants. Once you've become hooked, there's no escaping it, you've got to keep running.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Lance Armstrong - my greatest inspiration




Lance Armstrong is the BIGGEST inspiration in my life. He was diagnosed with testicular cancer which had spread to his lungs and brains. After recovering, he came back on his bike and won the tour de france a record breaking 7 times in a row. Next time you think you cant do it, Lance did it after having 3 cancers.

Friday, March 5, 2010

5th March, 2010

Today is the pivoting point in my life. It makes my future, it reaffirms my past, it makes my present. So I've gotten my alvl results, and I'm in a state of mixed emotions. I have many reasons to be happy right now. But I'm not.

Reason number 1
I scored a C for my math. I know C isn't much of a big deal to many of you out there. But, to me, C is huge. My math grade in prelim exams was U, and i pulled it all the way up to C, and I'm quite happy with that, considering my math was always a goner.

Reason number 2
I scored a B for both biology and chemistry. Which, to me, is also quite satisfactory. The chemistry paper 1 (multiple choice questions) was a killer to me. I was literally dripping cold sweat when i walked out from the exam hall that day, and i thought "my god, this is fucked, this is fucked". So the fact that I managed to pull off a B, is a BIG BIG relief.

Reason number 3
So with that, I have cleared my 3 H2 subjects with BBC. which is ... okay. I mean, look at my prelim grades : DSU !!!

So why am I not happy? Simple, i fucked my general paper (which is like, ENORMOUS-LY IMPORTANT). I mean, fucked. I don't want to talk about my general paper grade here. But its fucked, thats all you need to know.

I'll be taking some time over the next few days to examine all the options I have, and hopefully make a well informed and educated decision to decide the course of my future.

So, tell me, should I be happy or sad?